A little morbid
Am I the only one who, when faced with nothing else to do, comes up with disaster scenarios, each one more morbid than the last? I found myself on the train riding home from the city tonight with nothing to read, and too brain dead to engage in my other bored past time -- composing stories in my head. So I started thinking of all the horrible things that could go wrong on my way home. That guy in the seat next to me could follow me off the train and kill me. Someone could attack me and no one would help. Someone else could get attacked, and I would be too paralyzed with uncertainty to help them. The train could crash. It could blow up. Etc., etc.After I think of all these rather depressing things, I start to wonder what people's reactions will be. I go through the entire list of the people I know, and wonder how each of them would react to each scenario. Would I be missed? Would they visit me in the hospital? Would they want a midnight phonecall for help, or would I be better off waiting until the next day?
And then I got to thinking that this type of thinking can't possibly be normal. I don't have a death wish, I consider myself a pretty happy person, and I was on my way home from a really nice day with friends. So really have no idea why my thoughts went in that direction, but it isn't the first time, nor, I suspect, will it be the last.
And the funny part is that as soon as I have something else to distract me, I promptly forget about all those morbid thoughts and go on my merry way.
posted by Toni @ 12:34 AM
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